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This is straight out of camera because I am trying to back up all my photographs to external drives, discs and an online back-up server also. Nervous much? Yeah. So I am giving Photoshop a rest to night.
I’ve written about this previously, but since Duc entered my life I have really let myself go. Actually I can’t blame it on him—once I started the process to adopt him I began to let myself go. Like every good PAP I was too busy obsessively checking email and internet to go to the gym regularly. And eating? Yeah, I stress ate from Spring until the day I traveled. And I continued to do that even after we returned home. I was complaining to a friend the other day telling her I didn’t feel girly anymore. So, subtle steps. I wore lipstick to work every day for a week. Even bright red. I painted my toenails for the first time since late 2007 (and, as you can see, I can’t color within the lines). I even grew my fingernails out since I am no longer playing the violin. I forgot how hard it was to take my contacts out with long nails or wash dishes. And how the heck does one text with long nails?
The other night when I rolled over I aggravated a groin injury I sustained when Duc suddenly jumped on my knee while I was sitting cross legged. I rolled around in pain and I realized how stupid it all was. It is time for me to improve my health again. Duc and I are finally at a good place again and it is time for mama to venture away and take care of herself. Say a prayer that he feels the same way!
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Good luck! I've slowly but surely been taking some of the same steps when I can... it's hard, but so rewarding!
I wonder how to balance it all, too. I have a single friend with a daughter from Guatemala. She's in the gym at least 3 times a week. But that means picking her daughter up from daycare and then putting her in the gym daycare. I just can't do it.
So I've decided at least until Mia's been home for a year or two... any physical activity will have to be WITH her. I'm planning to buy a jogging stroller and that cool attach your kid to the bike thing that Doris had on her blog.
Good luck with it all. I understand the "let yourself go during the wait" syndrome. I have a very bad case of it myself. LOL!
It is hard to get back in the swing of things. I stress ate right along with you from Spring of 08 to December 08....and beyond. But since i have been working out (at home, with my wii fit when Aiden is sleeping) I do feel better. It took freaking 7 months to lose 16 pounds but I can run and jump and play with Aiden and not feel out of breath and exhausted afterwards. Good luck!
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