Dread

I knew this day would arrive—it was inevitable.  It was also one of the reasons I was so reluctant to adopt as a single person without family in the vicinity.   What do you do when you wake up feeling ill and your child isn’t?

I woke up feeling so exhausted that I could barely move.  I don’t know if I am coming down with something or I’ve just been too busy and this was my body’s way of saying “sit your cheeks down!”   The joints ached and all I wanted to do was throw the blanket over my head and sleep.  All Spud wanted to do was get up early.  Of course it would also be a day when Spud decided only to take a short afternoon nap. 

The only thing harder than keeping up with him was the knowledge that I was shortchanging him a mother.  I hated that feeling.  But he is such a dear.  He seemed to know I wasn’t having a good day and for the most part stuck close by so I wasn’t having to chase him throughout the house.  He even spent some time on the couch with me—we curled up and played and I would try to make him laugh.  His laugh is like medicine for me.  And the strangest thing happened…I started feeling better.  Maybe the early afternoon nap we had taken was finally kicking in or maybe, just maybe, the joy of being with him revived me. 

 

Yep, that’s my little man trying to help me out.  What a sweetie!